Glenn Dies??!

I got off work a little early today, and after I cleaned the house a little, I decided to catch up on The Walking Dead. I'd only seen the first episode of Season 6, so I had (and still have) a lot of catching up to do.

About halfway through episode 602, Aidan comes in my room.

Me: Watch The Walking Dead with me...
Aidan: I've already seen them all.
Me: Then I'll turn on the Parks and Rec so you can see L'il Sebastian (she will love that episode).
Aidan: I'm not up to that season yet.
Me: Then go clean something...
Aidan glances at TV and smiles as Maggie appears. "Momma, who are you on The Walking Dead?"
Without hesitation or even a twitch or blink I say, "Obviously Michonne!"

Aidan starts LAUGHING.
I pause the show.
Me: What? Who do YOU think I am?
Aidan: Momma, you are Maggie in EVERY single way but the accent. Every time I see Maggie, I see you!

How I often picture Maggie....lost with a touch of hopelessness in her eyes...

I'm totally indignant. Maggie?! The sensitive, fragile MAGGIE?! I couldn't believe it. I couldn't see myself as anyone other than the kick ass yet tender, katana wielding Michonne.
Me: I am SO not Maggie! I'm Michonne. You're Carol.
Aidan just keeps laughing hysterically.
Me: You're Carol and Rick combined.

Aidan laughs and laughs and I wish I had a katana.
Aidan: Momma, Maggie is good. She's tough AND like a momma. Michonne isn't.
Me: Michonne was a momma...
Aidan: Yeah, but she's hard now. You're not.

And it hit me. I AM more like Maggie. While Michonne has a tender, protective side, it's not the first thing that comes to mind when you think of her.
And as much as I would like people to think of me as a tough Viking warrior superhero when they first meet me, I realize that they won't see me that way. They'll see Maggie. Maggie has a hidden toughness, though, and I've got to hold on to that.

Maggie can be pretty awesome, too.

Maggie is hesitant not because she's scared, but because she values life.

Then Aidan left, and I started episode 603.
AND WHAT THE HECK!?
GLENN DIED! A horrible, scary, violent death, and I was suddenly bawling as I imagined watching that scene through Maggie's eyes. Having just been told I was Maggie in just about every way, I identified really, really strongly with her at that moment.

Yes, I know. It's fiction, just a TV show. But that doesn't stop me from thinking of the "what if's" and the utter horror of the scene. What if it was real? The heartache the fictional Maggie would feel would feel very real to me.

 OR...what if it was really me in real life watching my loved one die a very real and horrible death? Those are the thoughts that get me...

Why did Glenn have to die?

Oh, but I just got an update. All my crying might have been wasted. Check out these texts between me and Aidan after I realized Glenn was gone forever...